Wanting to tell the world to f**k off

I am really lucky so far. Pretty much all my online friends are really good and understanding. You get the odd one with some wizz bang new cancer cure but they aren't pushy or anything so I just thank them and leave it at that.

Good tip on seeing the GP but I think my chemo team actually has a specialist section for depression so if the GP isn't really helpful it may be because he thinks you should see the experts rather than him just jotting down some prescription willy nilly.

Don't forget your cancer breast nurse, the McGrath one either. She should be able to have a good chat and be a bit of a sounding board. Costs you nothing and might really clear the air for you.

I do have some friends who aren't the greatest and their colours are showing with the word Cancer, they go all twitchy and odd and want to push on you all the cancer cures in the world, drop around any old time when you are feeling crap and get all bent out when I say I am fine thanks and leave it at that.

You cant pick your family either and sometimes they fail you. No ones perfect I guess and its a bit of a hard road as this cancer seems to occupy so much of my life atm. Stick your good friends and family or even spend a bit of quiet time with just you. Get them Energizer batteries of yours rested and recharged and even refocussed. Be patient! I know that's my bugbear, I want to be fixed, better and on with my life and I want it now. Patience grasshopper. <3