Very dark place at the moment

Oh Sue, my heart broke for you and your husband when I read this post. I think everything you are both feeling is so normal under those circumstances. You've been to hell and back and it is all catching up now. I'm nearing the end of my treatment now and my hubby is falling apart. He's so angry, lonely, and can't cope with the smallest things. He just keeps saying that he can't take anymore. It definitely sounds like counselling would help. There are a lot of issues going on for both of you and I think if there was someone who could give you a different perspective, some strategies to cope etc would help. Speak to hubby, tell him he hasn't failed you. Start the dialogue. It is a wonderful thing you have done to move oversees to help people less fortunate but I can't help but wonder if the whole "there's always someone else worse off" scenario is somehow denying you the need to acknowledge the fact that you have been through hell and need time to repair both body and spirit. As far as family is concerned, well you can't control that. I too have been hurt by family. You kids are adults. Apart from trying to have a dialogue with them there's not much more that you can do. Maybe they aren't coping with having had their mother so I'll. maybe they are sick of hearing about it who knows. The fact is it's been your world for so long. Try to find something that you and your husband can feel joy in again. Even if it is just a walk along the beach together. It's not going to fall into place over night but it can get better. Hang in there. Karen xox