Very dark place at the moment

Hi Tonyam,  I feel over whelmed, that's why I turned to here where others have been thru similar things.  It's not easy. Everyone thinks, well it's 3 yrs, you should be over it and not feeling sorry for yourself. It's far from it.  That's why I moved away so I could make a difference in others lives not so fortunate.  It's been building up, my girls not contacting me etc, but was so gutted to see my husband that way. He's a big strong man and not afraid to cry, but it all just got too much for him.  I guess I never thought my sadness and esteem issues affected him so much.  We've been working hard since it happened on Wednesday to draw together.  He was going to set me free, that hurt so much.  In that he couldn't keep living and watch me suffer.  But I agree, I might've bitten off more than I could chew coming overseas.  I just want to feel normal again and my happy self. It's hard. Thank you so much for your support and to talk to someone who's been thru these ordeals too xx