@Brach518 sometimes it is good to face your worries head on. At least you can visit the topic of your own funeral explore it and then move on. I have discussed my wishes with my family. No I havent fallen of the perch or am about to.
Sometimes I have a wotif discussion . Just clears my head.
I found the last chemo definitely very challenging emotionally. The nurses warn you there is a build up in your system and you get progressively tired and emotional. Okay not for all but it did affect me.