Hi @Brach518, Have you thought of perhaps ringing the Cancer Counsel help line PH: 131120, that is of course if you are trying to stop funeral thoughts, they have their support line and it might help talking to someone about it. On the other hand I personally don't see anything wrong with thinking about planning our own funerals particularly with the range of caskets and ceremonies that can be tailored to our personalities these days. Doesn't mean you're planning on using it tomorrow or next week but realistically they are an expensive last outing that can be planned ahead and I don't see anything morbid about it. Big hugs to you, Julie. You're still sounding pretty positive to me. Xx Cath