Up, then down

We don't use the term emotional roller coaster for no reason. The ups and downs will happen all along the way. We can share our feelings, good and bad, and be supported on here. We all have moments, especially at night where we just want to scream about the unfairness of it all. We are good people but we have to go through all this. It is not fair! Early on I used to watch the news on TV and look at the newsreaders and journalists and think they are going home to their normal lives. Their lives are the same as they were 2 months ago, mine is not! They will have dinner and go to bed and wake up feeling good. When will my life be like this again? I think the chemo drugs and steriods have an affect on our mood too. It seemed to go in a pattern after a while. I feel a lot more 'level' in my moods now (last chemo was 19 Sept) and my lovely husband commented that I am actually better mood wise now than before BC! What you are feeling is 'normal' for us and it helps to share it with others who totally understand. You need to vent the feelings and then you usually feel better. This is the best place to do that. Hope you are feeling better this morning. Do something nice that you enjoy as a little reward for how well you are doing. You are such a lovely person, helping others on here. xxxxoooo Deanne