Unlucky?

Hi NE I love your post because it actually describes the very mixed and unpredictable emotions that come with not just diagnosis but even before. That one minute you are just fitting in a routine breast screen between everyday activities and then the next blurry weeks - do I hope for the best or prepare for the worst, do I hope or not!! I suddenly became very aware of what was going on around me and looking for signs and I'm not a superstitious person. Within a month I have been prodded and poked, scanned and biopsied, injected and operated on and now am 2 weeks post surgery. And what I have learnt is not knowing is worse than knowing, and that being "protected" from bad news or sympathetic looks and nodding without actually giving me the facts is worse. I was still hoping for the best when in hindsight I'm sure professionals knew it was not going to be OK but they don't tell you. I know people mean well but let me cry and just tell me what I need to know and I will deal with it. I can only do what I have control over. I have specifically not said my diagnosis as it is probably better than some and worse than others but it is my reality and I will take my treatment as recommended do some extra research my self and hope for the best. Will chemo be bad ? I don't know it might be bad or Ok but it will be what it is and I will cross that bridge when I get to it. Some times I read posts and I feel my anxiety rise and others make me feel good but that might be just not real. So my job in all of this is to take the advice of the best people I can find. Keep myself rested and eat well and exercise and take the recommended treatment and have some belief that I will be alright and this will be seen as an event in my long life. All the best to you and all of the other people affected by breast cancer