I agree with you on so many levels.I feel extremely well too...better than I ever have,and at my 12 month surgeons checkup today,he commented to me that I look ' absolutely wonderful' !!!! I couldn't feel any better even if I wanted to! I also ,have found the last 12 months an enriching experience.It is up to us how we get through an experience like this,and what we take from it once it is all over.All the best to you Fiona,and perhaps soon I will also be in that place where I will leave this network behind,but I'm not there yet. Look after yourself.Cheers xoxRobyn