The waiting game

Hi Carole It's great to hear from you. Sorry to hear you had a reaction to the anaesthetic... I hope you are feeling better now. You can tick surgery off your list and soon you will have your results and learn where you are off to next... The waiting is dreadful. Im glad to hear you are listening to your body and resting. I was great for a few days living on adrenalin I think then suddenly I was finding I needed a rest sometimes mid morning. I just had to listen and give in and I'm sure my recovery was better because if it. Reading your message I remembered my first appointment at the oncology dept to meet my oncologist and discuss chemo. It was as if there was a physical barrier at the door stopping me from entering... If I entered I became a " cancer" patient and I didn't see myself as one.... It wasn't that I didn't acknowledge I had cancer... I wasn't sick and didn't want to be a patient. That day sometimes seems so long ago... A time when I was overcome by tests, appointments etc. Now it is so much easier.. It has just become my life right now and I just get on with it... You will feel like that soon enough. I had chemo number 7 on Thursday. Next week I will be halfway through my chemo and that feels great... Bring on radiation :) My thoughts are with you and I'm sending you lots of healing hugs. Mel xxx