@Payne ... that sounds great speaking to an onc before! I rang today and asked the chemo nurse if it was possible to see the head chemo onc who I saw twice and knows my history if I could see her next appointment ... the nurse said it was unlikely as luck of the draw but she would put in a request into the booking system and see if that helped. I agree I may need to be more assertive and as my counselor said, but not be aggressive ... lol. I said it is more likely I will cry as don't have energy for aggressive! She also said to be very firm and not go home without the assistance I need. So will try that! @Giovanna_BCNA thank you for your good wishes. With the help of the good women on this site I am getting to learn the ropes and this crisis in confidence and neutropenia related melt down has shown me how valuable it is to have people to talk to here who can offer that little bit of hope or encouragement or even just a hug when you feel the cancer is the driver's seat. xxx
