The death of the 'other' me?
Hi Ladies' I am really sorry i haven't been here much and contributed the way I used to....the tables have turned, it's my turn to be down in that abyss, as i have so often referred to it myself.......
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Well @ScorpionQueen, as totally abnormal as this whole bc experience is, your feelings sound so totally "normal" !
Whether you want to laugh, cry, scream, yell, grieve or all of those things together - go for it. If it is just for today, a week, a month - however long it takes for you to feel "you" again - will happen in it's own time.
For most people, and I was certainly one of them, we set goals in life. I set myself many bc goals and found that as I got over each hurdle that would be a little win (I had to give it some positive spin). I can certainly relate to how you are feeling - you steel yourself for the long ride ahead - "I'll just get through the operation", "I'll just get through chemo", "Last round of chemo" etc etc.
Nobody tells you about the "then what ....."
To be told you are sick is one thing but to have fears about the if's, why's and what's (they always come in the middle of the night !) but to also have your independence whisked away is just so confronting. After all, you don't need babysitting but sometimes feel as though your well meaning and fabulous loved ones are always keeping a watchful eye on you !
Your new self is just as awesome as your old self and I am sending a big hug, love and light to you as it is now our turn to give back to you today.
Sheryl xxx