The death of the 'other' me?

For me the hardest part of this whole ordeal was the weeks and months after treatment had finished, for all the reasons you have so eloquently expressed. During treatment time was taken up with the endless rounds of appointments, scans, procedures etc and although it was rough going through those months of treatment, I wasn't prepared for how sad and angry I was afterwards. I was clutching for a "new normal" that wasn't too different from my old normal and finding it hard to come to terms with the person I was looking at in the mirror - I was physically reconstructed but emotionally torn apart. I needed time (and lots of it) to grieve and to try and process all that had happened. It is still early days for you but I promise you, you will get there. Keep writing, it all helps. Hugs, Jane xx