Tears and more tears

I have had the best christmas with my family, we played games, watched movies, sang singstar and ate wonderful food. I got out of hospital on the day before Christmas eve after spiking a fever of 39.5 days earlier and thinking I would have to stay in for the christmas period, but after begging and promising to take my antibiotics I was let out much to my joy.

So why am I feeling so blue, each evening my legs and hands tingle, my heart becomes heavy, I hyperventalte and become fidgity then the tears start. I just do not know what is wrong with me. My last Chemotherapy is tomorrow so I have many reasons to be happy but I am filled with doom and gloom. Radiation starts on January 23rd I am so nervous but know I am on the home run now. Does anyone else get these overwhelming anxieties? My husband thinks I am just tired from all the hype of Christmas and having over done things. I feel stupid for feeling so blue and crying like a baby for no obvious reason.