Dear @Aalice
Sorry, I am in Letrozole not tamoxifen and I am not taking anti-depressants, but I notice the word ‘should’ in your post. Who says you should be this or that? Cancer is serious, not just physically but also emotionally. There are good reasons why people are fearful about it! Depression is quite common - a brush with death, planned life derailed, surgery, reactions to drugs, can’t imagine why anyone would feel depressed!! Getting to a new normal takes individual time, there is no prescribed period. Antidepressants may help a lot although in my own case I found talking to a good counsellor about expectations (and how ‘normal’ my pre-cancer life actually was!) extremely useful. Worry and a sense of failure are not useful, nor are they some kind of personal weakness. They are pretty common, normal reactions. Take some time to let your feelings out and try the antidepressants. A more relaxed approach may make a world of difference. Best wishes.