survivor guilt??

Thanks for all the comments.  They have been very much appreciated! 

My week went down hill on Thursday and I had a bit of a melt down at work.  You know one of those times where you are completely inconsolable and have the snotty nose happening, are incapable of explaining what is wrong.  It was needed though! The trigger for it was a phone call from my mum letting me know a family friend is now in palliative care.  That just opened the flood gates! I am so fortunate I work with such an amazing supportive group of people. 

I have a friend who has survived bowel cancer and we caught up on the weekend.  It was very reassuring to hear that she had been struggling with the same kind of emotions as I had. That combination of  grief, heart break, relief is a tough one to balance out.  But like I keep saying to my self tomorrow is a new day and the sun will still rise. 

Wishing you all a week filled with sunshine and love (but hopefully the temp can be turned down a bit!)