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Super sensitive!
What is going on with my mood? I feel like a crazy, miserable cow....
Can we blame others for our meltdowns or is it all about our own choice on how we deal with things?
So, over the past 6 months......first, cancer diagnosis, 2 days later my beautiful Mum passed away! Had Mums funeral & my mastectomy in the same week. Have just completed chemo & now on Tamoxifen......balancing my grief and and trying to deal with bc has been challenging and I am missing her more now than ever!
As well as this I am struggling with my expectations of others. And try as I might I can't seem to shrug off bad manners & disrespect! I accept & appreciate there are some people who find it hard to talk or deal with us who are going through a cancer diagnosis....however, I have been so upset this weekend with a couple of instances where family/friends I have come across but not seen prior to 6 months ago did not acknowledge me or just ask "How are you going?"
As well, it seems that once chemo is finished people expect you to be back to the way you were before having to stare mortality in the eye! I guess only those who are part of the club would understand we will all be living a new normal....which means constant worry, loss of femininity, early menopause & heaps more!
Thank goodness for this fab website where we can rant, rave & let off steam....and know we are not alone! Hoping my negativity will be replaced with positive thoughts soon....
Note to self: Live in the present....!
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- Thank you everyone for words of advice and support. I'm feeling a bit better tonight. Maybe just venting on paper helped. I'll try to focus on me and not all the things bugging me.
- My mum died in May and I had been in " nurse" mode looking after her( my way of coping).Then I arranged her funeral and after that,consoled her friends and relatives. Mum didn't want anyone to know she was dying of cancer and she didn't want anyone at her funeral,just her children and 2 grandchildren.So there were a lot of upset people afterwards and I have only just started grieving now for mum.I think it hits you down the track when you can stop,breathe and process it.No doubt,you had the bc battle to contend with when your dear mum died.What a terrible time you've had this year.I feel a connection with you Jen because we've both lost our mums this year.I get abit teary- never know when,but that's normal. It took me about 2 years on from bc to get some confidence back in my health.Some people expect you to move on and get over it.I've had someone ask me why am I running a bc support group and staying with BCNA- don't I want to forget about breast cancer now.My close friends would never say that. Thinking of you and sending hugs,Tonya xx
