Super sensitive!

I know exactly what you are talking about.Physically I am feeling pretty great.Yes I have hot flushes,but I was having those before,so they are nothing new for me:( The emotional stuff,I can relate to Jen.When I was diagnosed,we had 2 gorgeous little children living with us.They had been with us for 10 months.Because of my diagnosis,and the uncertainty of what lay ahead,they were transitioned to a new family very quickly.On the day we took them to their new family,(4 days before my mastectomy) I just gave them a brief hug,and walked away.Usually I would be breaking my heart,and I was amazed at my own self control.I realise now though,that it was my body's way of helping me cope at such a stressful time.It is only now(6 months this week) after diagnosis,surgery and chemo,that I am starting to miss them,and I think about them a lot.I get teary when I remember them ,and wish I could have one more little hug.I think I am feeling like this,because now I can finally let go a bit,as I am 'on the mend' so to speak.My husband says I am crankier than before,or quick to get annoyed at things,and I know he is right.Thank goodness he is patient!! Tamoxifen for me ,is fine,but who knows if it contributes to our moods a lot Jen.Do you mind if I suggest,that perhaps now,after treatment is over,you really need to spend proper time,grieving for your Mum.Not easy when you have a family to care for day to day,and as you said,people that assume you are totally back to normal!It will take time Jen,and for you,it will take longer,because you had more than most of us to deal with,at the time of your diagnosis and treatment.Sending you a big smile,and a gentle hug!!:) Robyn xoxo. P.S.Stay on this network Jen,if you have time. I find it very helpful,and it only takes a few minutes out of my day ,to check it,and see if there is some one that maybe I can help,or perhaps get some reassuring information for myself,from people ahead of me in their journey.It is VERY healing to have somewhere that you can offload your feelings ,and know that you won't be judged.Only people that have been through the same thing,can truly understand the complexities of this .xox