@piccme - sorry to read your post and as I read through I come to realise that your Dad has passed! That is sad to know that you were unable to be there but you were in thought which counts for a lot. Grief is never easy and there is no rule book so allow yourself time to grieve and hopefully soon your tears will become smiles of joy as you recall the better times you had together.
As to the network, we don't all get on here and comment but we all know it is a comfort to have it here to help us through and or feel better knowing someone else is doing it just as tough!
Take care and look after yourself and hopefully this BC will be a part of your past and not the future. xx