Well written Jessica, beautiful words. My journey started 3 years ago and I felt as exactly as you feel now. Life changes and we no longer have the certainty that we will live a long life, although many of us do. But it is how we live the life we have that matters. Make every day count. Enjoy the small things. Smell the roses.
Sadly my cancer has returned, but I remain positive. I have to. 3 weeks ago my son gave me our first grandchild, and I intend to watch him grow up. I made a pact with my friend that we will celebrate his 21st together.
I feel a little more anxious in some ways about my future now, but in other ways, having been here before, I feel calm too if that makes sense?
But I will continue to remain positive (most of the time) and live every day to the fullest. I will rest when my body tells me to, and carry on as normal with work, home and family. Because that is just what we do!
God bless xx