Hi Kim,
Sorry you had a crappy result from the oncotype test. And I am sorry you are still suffering from the chemotherapy.
I have thought about going for chemo regardless, for all the reasons you have mentioned, but my oncologists has said he would not recommend it, so I have to trust him.
Cancer plays with your mind as much as your body and we never seem to be sure of the outcome. There are so many things to consider, some of which seem trivial, like cancelling our holiday. Maybe I'll be fine, maybe I won't. I'm sick of all the maybes, so have taken some control over one of them. It helps ... a little.
Never apologise for "raving". We all do it and we are all entitled. I am about to embark on the radiation treadmill and will undoubtedly "rave" on here again. Thank you so much for your support, it means a lot.
Take care and many hugs,
San-Dee