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So why aren't I happy?
So, after my beautician discovering a swelling in my armpit way back in November last year, the follow up GP examinations and breast screening, biopsy, then a lumpectomy in March followed by appointm...
When I was first diagnosed my breast surgeon said I would do well with surgery and chemo...as the type of cancer I had is almost always offered chemo. On my second appointment he said we wait and see if I need it. That freaked me right out. I spoke with the breast care nurse and she again reiterated that I would be offered chemo. So following surgery...no nodes etc clear scans...because I have a her2 pos grade 3 ES pos cancer I am on chemo. Long story I know...but I totally get it. We are delighted but scared about what is the right course. You still have a lot of treatment to get through, and possibly hormone treatment so still a lot to get through. The "I'm lucky" feeling may come eventually but may never. Doesn't matter. Our experiences are all traumatic and take time to recover from. One step at a time. Stop criticising how you are feeling...just acknowledge that this is how you feel. Relieved but still fearful. Kath x