so they say "try and stay postive " AGH!!!!

Lucky to be out......hahahahahaha.  You know I feel you pain, anguish, frustration and agree with everything you have said.  My husband says "I am so proud of you"  for what I think to myself, breathing? doing the housework?  Oh, by the way, I have a very dry sense of humour if you dont know me...(smile).  I am so brave apparently, some say, and once again I think what am I brave about, walking through a doorway and taking a lift to the fourth floor of a hospital?  Ya get the picture.  Those meaningless comments said by those who love us, are meant to be supportive and I remind myselft that is how I will take it.  Our state of mind and way we are is of little choice of course, but one thing I am grateful of is that sense of humour that slowly comes back just in time for the next hit of Chemo.  I try not to get on-line when I get cranky, because more than likely I will wind up treading on peoples toes.  On-line as in Facebook or email, but here I can be brutely honest, as grumpy as I like and fling as much mud as possible... because my friends, Im talking to you.  The people who get it.  Love Bel