So many thoughts...
I don't know where to start :-).
I don't expect a response - I am just writing what is going through my head - maybe somewhere down the track someone like me will find this and relate :-)
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Thanks everyone. It did help just to get it down. The conflicting emotions were driving me a bit crazy. I am still to reach a point that not every waking thought is one relating to BC - well not every one but about 99% of them! LOL! I'm sure that will come.
Dawn - I totally relate to the car crash thing - I thought that today.
You ladies are wonderful - thank you.
Amanda