So many thoughts...
I don't know where to start :-).
I don't expect a response - I am just writing what is going through my head - maybe somewhere down the track someone like me will find this and relate :-)
There...
Forum Discussion
Hi Amanda,
You've had a scare and it's normal to reflect on the "what ifs". I can remember the first time thinking "what a fuss for a small lump".I didn't feel sick,didn't even know I had cancer.But ofcourse,once the treatment starts you sure as hell feel sick then! Flowers,cards and well meaning comments come flooding in and you wonder if you did the right thing telling everyone.Many people don't have have any medical knowledge and they hear the"c"word and immediately think the worst.The looks of pity are hard to take,especially when your hair falls out. But we,in the cancer world, know that it's a beatable disease if caught early. And then we have to stay vigilent and hopeful.It will be hard for you with little kids.Mine were older but one was doing her school certificate and the other daughter her HSC. So when is a good time??I can also remember reading stacks of cancer books.I needed to know how I got b cancer when there was no family history.I thought I could prevent it coming back.It really does your head in,all this thinking.In life,shit just happens-and often to really nice people.So give your head a break from time to time and try not to think too far ahead.Your reactions are all normal.Your head is just trying to catch up with what's just happened to your body.
Tonya xx