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Sick again!
Well hello ladies, I last posted 11/2 after my 2nd last chemo (Docetaxol). Thought I would keep you updated with my proactive plan. Had the chemo on the Tuesday, came down off the steroids on the Thurs night, Friday comes and the aches and pains are there, with Panadol they are manageable, rash came but not itchy and irratable with the help of anti-histamines, so far so good:) Saturday morning and everything went to crap. Neck muscles were so bad I couldn't hold my head up, I went to bed waking periodically to take meds. After 2 hours sleep, woke up and my mouth was full of thrush even though I had been rinsing religiously. Felt like I had a furry animal in my throat. Started Nilstat and then my throat starts to ache, so started liquid morphine as well. I was so upset that I cried and cried and my partner stayed by my side with a tear as well. I have kept my fluids up so I'm not dehydrated, just oh so sick. This drug doesn't like me at all. Now it's Monday and I am sitting here blogging while drinking a bottle of water, wondering how in the world I can do this one more time. I know I need to finish this chemo, but the thought of getting sick again next month makes me cry again. 'One day at a time'. I keep saying it but I just don't know if I'm strong enough. I have been forcing food down, so tasteless. Don't want another stay in hospital. I never did think I was strong enough, then I thought, yes, I am. Now in the middle of all this, I just don't know anymore. Am I a sook? How have all you wonderful ladies done this? I'm just feeling really sad, but I do wish that you are all well,
Hazel xx
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Funny how you mentioned the steroids, my partner commented how it's a shame I couldn't have more steroids and ease the side effects. I will ask the oncologist about this, if it could lessen the sickness by just a little bit, that would be good. I'm starting to think maybe I could do it one more time. I appreciate the advice and the big hug,
Hazel xx
We are and it is certainly a battle, I will try to stay focused, take care,
Hazel xx
Thanks for thinking of me, I did hesitate about blogging because I didn't want to scare people with my sookiness. But we are all different so I hope you cope better than I, take care,
Hazel xx
I believe that you were one of the first to contact me on this website, and I always appreciate your advice. I'm just so emotional at the moment, but I'm sitting up again, that's got to be good. I know in my heart that i would never forgive myself if I didn't finish this chemo. You made it through, maybe I can, thank you for the hugs,
Hazel xx
You can do it girl! I have similar symptoms to you all over again. You know I stupidly thought that I wasn't going to get any side effects this time around. I had the docetaxol last Wednesday and nothing until Sunday morning. Intense bone pain, throat inflammed, moody and a lot sleepier this time around. Kids are at school so at least I can sleep during the day. I have found chemo tough and can't wait until it is over. I am so sorry to hear you are in pain, take comfort in knowing that I am out here suffering with you. It is tough mentally knowing that we will probably go through these symptoms again but it is only ONE MORE TIME. We are going to cross that line together and never look back!
Big hugs XO
You can do it girl! I have similar symptoms to you all over again. You know I stupidly thought that I wasn't going to get any side effects this time around. I had the docetaxol last Wednesday and nothing until Sunday morning. Intense bone pain, throat inflammed, moody and a lot sleepier this time around. Kids are at school so at least I can sleep during the day. I have found chemo tough and can't wait until it is over. I am so sorry to hear you are in pain, take comfort in knowing that I am out here suffering with you. It is tough mentally knowing that we will probably go through these symptoms again but it is only ONE MORE TIME. We are going to cross that line together and never look back!
Big hugs XO
- Hang in there Hazel. Thinking of you. It's nearly finished, stay strong.
- Hang in there Hazel. Thinking of you. It's nearly finished, stay strong.
- Hang in there Hazel. Thinking of you. It's nearly finished, stay strong.
- I feel your pain. I too had the bloody awful oral thrush. I used to drink those yakult drinks x2 every day after each chemo, think they really helped. I had the aches but somehow struggled through. One to go girlfriend. Cheering you on. Hang in there. Paula x
