Sick again!

You are bringing back all my bad memories of Docetaxel. It is tough going and I remember feeling so awful and wondering how I would get through. I suffered from oral thrush the whole time nearly and had to just constantly use the Nilstat. I used to be so weak with the muscle aches that I could not stand long enough to get myself a slice of toast. But you just keep getting through each day as best as you can and eventually you get there. I felt like one of those marathon runners that can barely get over the finish line before they rush in with the stretcher, all wonky but determined to get there. It is hard on your loved ones too, having to watch and unable to really do anything to help. I remember laying down, eyes closed and talking with my sister or Mum on the phone because I could not do anything else. My eyes were too sore to watch TV or read. That was when my throat allowed me to talk! But you do get past this and feel better. I just so appreciate feeling well again and I am really glad that I did the chemo to give myself the best chance of staying well. Hope the next few days pass quickly for you and that you have a few days of feeling better this round. You are nearly there but I totally understand the feeling that it is too hard. I remember telling people that yes I could see the light at the end of the tunnel but that I knew it was a freight train that would run me over before I could get to the fresh air! Sending you lots of gentle hugs. Deanne xxxxoooo