Hi Sandra,
I too felt that today was a strange day. It's awful you felt lonely and isolated - but I can totally understand. But you know what, everybody has something they're dealing with - be it a medical situation, financial, psychological etc. - every one has problems. You just don't know about them. If you want to share your story with others, do. If you don't, just get on here and you can talk as much as you want and get feedback from women who are in the same situation. If they're close friends, personally, I would tell them. Your close friends are an amazing source of support at a time like this.
There's so much support on this website too. As for chemo, don't work yourself up over it. Yes it's horrible to go through, but you will get through it - just make sure you take the anti nausea meds and you should be fine. They say everyone can react differently - but chemo has come so far and there's so much available now to deal with the side effects.
Another thing I've learned is that people react differently when you tell them you have breast cancer. Most are extremely supportive - but don't be surprised if you find the odd one or two who sort of back away. It's not because they want to - they just don't know how to deal with it.
It's the fun times like today when the rain started bucketing down, you were able to forget about the BC and enjoy running in the rain with the fairy floss! Its sounds like you all had fun - and definitely a good note to finish on.
I wish you well in the next step of this journey.
Take care
xoxo