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Putting my face on
Hi Ladies,
3 months since chemo and 2 months since radiation and I am still gradually getting stronger.
I have been on Anastrozole for 4 weeks and no drastic side effects up to this point. My confusion and moodiness have eased somewhat. My hair is growing which is good, 2 shades of grey and sticking up everywhere.
My eyebrows and lashes have been the quickest which surprised me seeing they were the last to leave. Lately, when I go out I have been putting make-up on and trying to look a bit decent, surprisingly how many people tell me how well I'm looking.
Some days I just don't feel like it. I had lunch with my girlfriend and her parents the other day (make-up free) and the next time I saw her she remarked she was disappointed I didn't have my face on when she saw me last and wondered why - when clearly it makes me look better.
I wasn't insulted as we have been friends for 40 years but it occurred to me that people must feel more comforted when they think I look well.
Throughout this whole process I have found myself playing down how I was feeling so others wouldn't worry, even from the day I was diagnosed.
The only place I was honest was this Website because all the people on here know and understand the problems.
Anyway, at this point I'm going ok, still dealing with my depression which constantly tries to bring me down with negative thoughts.
My partner has come to terms with his heart problems and surprisingly after being together 24/7 for 10 months now, we are still close and support each other.
I am having my mammogram and ultrasound on the 23/7, seeing the surgeon and oncologist the same day and am hoping that maybe I can do some short shifts at work in August.
I am a bar attendant and TAB operator and dealing with public, I am a bit concerned about the wig because I am wondering what I will do when I have too much hair for my wig and not enough to go without but I guess I will deal with that when it happens.
Maybe when I put my full make-up face on everybody will be stunned at how well I look:)
Enough waffling from me, hope everybody is coping as well as they can, take care,
Hazel xx
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I have already had the comment that I look a bit butch. It was supposed to be funny but like you said it wasn't funny on quite a few levels. It will be strangers that will affect me, I have been thinking that I will have to stop and think, 'Who is this person?' 'How important are they in my life?' I have become a lot stronger since my diagnosis, hopefully I will have my shield up, sending big hugs back at ya,
Hazel xx
I couldn't wait to stop wearing head gear, I found it hot and annoying. Like yours mine came back a couple of shades of silver and the growth was uneven. I took photos all along the way. I came back to work without any head gear, it was really short and I did have a person tell me I was rocking a good lezzo cut. How rude, thoughtless and completely politically incorrect. I admit to getting tears in my eyes, I know that the person thought they were being funny, its wasn't funny on so many levels. So overall that was it, one very stupid thoughtless person and many many wonderful understanding people.
My siutation was different, I work in corporate offices and its the same people who knew about my illness, I know for you your challenges will be strangers.
You will know when you are ready to go san wig.
Sending you hugs
Donna
I couldn't wait to stop wearing head gear, I found it hot and annoying. Like yours mine came back a couple of shades of silver and the growth was uneven. I took photos all along the way. I came back to work without any head gear, it was really short and I did have a person tell me I was rocking a good lezzo cut. How rude, thoughtless and completely politically incorrect. I admit to getting tears in my eyes, I know that the person thought they were being funny, its wasn't funny on so many levels. So overall that was it, one very stupid thoughtless person and many many wonderful understanding people.
My siutation was different, I work in corporate offices and its the same people who knew about my illness, I know for you your challenges will be strangers.
You will know when you are ready to go san wig.
Sending you hugs
Donna
