Hi Deanne,there is always something isn't there? Don't forget how strong we are now Deanne!!Our fear of cancer will always be close to the surface after what we have been through.Do you remember a few years back,there was a lady on the blog who lived just outside of Melbourne,and she had a lovely garden? I can't remember her name...anyway I recall her story of Christmas shopping.She had finished treatment,and was shopping on a hot day.She bought a bottle of water,and she couldn't undo the lid.She said that she burst into tears right in the middle of the shop where she was.Your story is just like that Deanne.We think we are OK,but it is just there,under the surface!!Try not to worry Deanne.Thinking of you.Cheers Robyn. xox