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So much for responding and so sorry to hear all you are going through. After speaking with a lovely girl at BCNA she pointed me here first. Yes I did get my journey kit which I have found invaluable.
Only 7 years ago I had major reconstructive bowel surgery which was a long slow recovery (and a massive change of diet!) and was strong enough to cope with that. I think i gave my friends and family the thought that I was superwoman, tough and strong etc. that I don't think they know how to deal with this weeping, angry, frustrated me who is so sore and cut up to even get a hug. I do appreciate your comment that the old normal is gone and I have to learn to take it each day. am seeing my GP again tomorrow to check leaking drain incisions and will ask her to refer me to someone for councelling. last week she thought I was not depressed but suffering post traumatic stress, I think she may be wrong because this is just not me at all. Luckily my lymph nodes and clear margin were clear and so no radio/chemo needed. Reconstruction is not viable due to my blood disorder as the risks of bleeding and infection are too great.
I am hopeful that once I am off antibiotics and pain relief I will settle. Berlie sent me a new bra with pads which I will try once the incisions begin to heal (from my shoulders, under my arm pits like a fan, down to my lowest rib on the L side and the R side and connected straight across my chest)
Anyhoo I will come back tomorrow after my visit to doc and let you know how I go.
Thank you so much again.
I just noticed other messages which I will reply to later as it's taking ages to type with the swelling I have...thank you all
xx