Paranoid....

I suppose we can take comfort in the fact that we all feel the same way and are not alone.After my first bout of bc in 2003 it took me about 2 years to feel confident about my health again.Certainly after 5 years I was downright smug that I'd finished with cancer.When it came back 7 years later,the rug was pulled from under me.And even though it was still classed as early bc I've now become paranoid too.I feel like a ticking time bomb.I don't like making any travel plans too far in advance which really annoys my husband.I get abit anxious the day before my 3monthly checkup.I think we are all normal and just doing the best we can to push this fear to the back of our minds and live our lives.It will keep surfacing but in time,not so often. I try and tell myself that there are much worse things in life that can happen to you.My poor brother in law has just had  surgery for  aggressive brain cancer.His prognosis is not good.In the "cancer world"we are the lucky ones if it's early bc.We just have to find a way to live with this worry and try not to dwell on it daily.

                                            Tonya xx