Paranoid....

Hi Susan, i thought I was the only one who feared my cancer would return. It isn't something that I can talk to my husband about, or my kids, as they all think that because of the chemo and the double mastectomy, I'm cured. They would not understand and just think I'm being pessimistic and I should just get on with my life. Judging from the responses to your blog, we are not alone. I kept thinking that once my reconstruction is over, ( last Wednesday), that I will be able to charge into 2012 with gusto. It hasn't happened, and I'm cross with myself, but happy to know others feel the same. I said I wont go to my support group this year, but hey it started last week, and guess who went? I also said I'd try and limit my time on this site, but I seem to be addicted to it instead, spending hours reading all the blogs. I would like someone to say, "you are fully cured and you can stop worrying". I guess that won't happen, but Susan, I know how you feel, and from these blogs, it seems everyone understands and knows as well. It has been 14 months since my diagnosis, and I really admire those who have been able to let go and start to live their lives again without fear. I'm so glad your reconstructcion has gone well, and you are happy. I too am very happy with my results from my implants. Thinking of you, and understanding your battle. Love Chris xx