Thanks arpie. The thought that, while ever I am alive, this fear will always be present overwhelms me. There is no banishing it, there will never be a time when it’s gone; I might suppress it and learn to live again but it’s going to be there, just below the surface, until I die. Not a peaceful thought.
Still, I know that right now I am just very tired and after 15 rounds of chemo it’s hard to feel bright and positive about anything except that in one weeks time I will have had the last round. 👏👏. I am excited to grow some hair again. And spend Thursday’s doing something else instead of sitting in that chemo ward.
