One year on..........

The anxiety nevery goes away - YOU ARE NORMAL.  I think that I am a really strong woman (have been through lots of things in my life) but I still feel anzious most of the time.  I try and keep really busy but it is still there.  Sometimes when I am being realistic I think that I am in denial most of the time in order to survive.  My family think I am now free of BC even though I have secondaries - I know it is their way of dealing with it.  Big help to me NOT.  Anyway I try not to talk about it much and get my support through other women "doing the same track".  In actual fact, even though I am still busy moving house and preparing our old home for sale, I am going to apply for a part time job.  This will satisfy a few areas in my life if I get this job.  (As if I am not busy enough)  My friend who is very ill keeps being extremely busy in her life.  I know what she is doing - I am going to be devastated when she is not by my side so I think it is time for me to "wean" myself from her by getting a job.  I have always been quite "knowing" and I think this is the "right" thing for me to do at this time.  All you can do Susan is what feels right for you.  It is such a scarey disease.  Then on the other side of things I rejoice in seeing ladies who have been free from bc for years. Take care dear pink sister. XLeonie