What you have just decribed is how a lot of us feel. You are not alone. In my spare moments I think of my BC journey alot. That's why I like working because it keeps my mind off things. I think about my diagnosis everyday and wonder how lucky I am. Keep smiling and stay positive is my motto. Some days are better than others. I feel for you having to wait until October. I had my follow up with my surgeon last month and mammogram - my anniversary is 26th of this month. I'm still having herceptin so am in contact with my oncologist every 3 weeks until October but I know what you mean. My next surgeon's appointment is next year! It is life changing but I know I couldn't have got through without you and other wonderful ladies on this site. I think the anxiety will always be with us but we all find ways to manage this.
Stay positive dear lady and keep blogging away. Thinking of you always...
Take care,
Love Alison xxx