What a wise woman you are!! You have gone through all the emotions that I am sure everyone is either going through; or reaching an end to their personal struggles...and looking forward to a positive future. I think that when we start our Cancer Journey we are so overwhelmed by everything that we put a lot of pressure on ourselves to be 'positive' all the time, to try to be 'normal ' for everyone. It takes time I suppose, when treatment has finished and we can concentrate on the present and on what we want for ourselves...enjoying life, our families and friends. ...and if something doesn't get done..IT DOES'T MATTER!! I wish you a wonderful..happy life. I had my 1st TC Chemo last Friday...went well..feeling OK.. but probably early days yet. I will certainly use your post when needed through my journey...a way to go for me yet. Thanks again. Chris.xx