@Nadi what a fantastic and honest post. THANK YOU! I think we can all identify with everything you talk about. Im blown away by your weightloss!! honestly what a massive achievement! I put on 7kg from Chemo 15months ago and cannot shift it :( I hardly drink alcohol anymore exercise has been difficult due to side effects so its still work in progress with an Exercise Physiologist. Getting over a mastectomy/reconstruction has set me back BUT like you cannot wait to start to get the weight off and reclaim my life. I am nearly 2 years clear and you are so right it does get better. After my recurrence in 2015 my world was rocked to the core...how does that happen inspite of aggressive treatment uuugh BUT again we dont know how the hell we get through it all but we do and we do come out the other side with a renewed determination to just BE, BE the best we can be and be happy! So wonderful to hear of your journey and how far you have come. Beautiful!!! Ohhh chocolate is my nemesis too uuugh not something I can give up either, plus its about moderation in all things, not about what we eat or dont eat..no rhyme or reason just whats best for ourselves. :) Hugs Melinda xo