Need some positive stories

I don't get meet my Oncologist until 29th July which is still anote week away and I feel like I have been waiting for ages already. I know the BC Specialist Dr Team is discussing my case this week and weighing up the pros and cons of +/- more lymph node surgery, type of chemo regime, -/+ radiotherapy regime given my plan for bilateral mastec's and recon. etc after Chemo. Oh I So So want to be a fly on the wall during that discussion! I have sat in on similar meetings at work and I know there is so much to be learned by these meetings and they can often include quite heated discussions if there is a conflict of views....that's the bits I want to know about. So all in all I am really crap at being a patient and not being nurse. I am really struggling to have faith in the decisions that will be made about my treatment when I don't know how they arrived at them. This is my control freak rearing is ugly head, Hmmm... what to do other than write down yet another five pages of questions for those Dr's unfortunately that won't fill my week so its good I'm back to work this week to distract my brain. Love to all Lara x