Need some positive stories

Hi All again, I got my final pathology results today from the lumpectomy, . My tumor ended up being larger than previously thought at 35mm, it had also extensively invaded my blood vessels which means cancer cells could be anywhere in my body now. Also after further pathology of the removed lymph nodes that were previously thought to have no cancer they found a very small metastese in one of the lymph nodes. And the tumor itself is a Grade 3!!! So I am really flattened by all this, I was so happy after my surgery and all this hit me like a truck. Only good news is I have estrogen and progesterone receptors and am HER2 negative. I now have to spend all of tomorrow having full body CT and bone scan to look for tumors in other parts of my bbody. I really hope I am due for some good luck soon, as I am running low on optimism. Lara