Mild anxiety

Hi Finita,

Thanks for your good wishes. Such a huge week of decisions to make. Trip to Brisbane then back to Mackay in one week for appointments with radio oncologist and medical oncologist.  I have decided to do both treatments, happy that I can do chemo here. Not totally happy about doing chemo as i thought i didn't need to initially, but they say I am young and fit. My er receptor is weak at 10% and a grade 2 tumor so i am prepared to throw everything at it. Now I am to make a decision on  cutting my hair which is long at past my waist and said by others as my crowning glory! Wish these things could just be  cut and dry and not emotional. I did call my hairdresser straight after my appointment to ask her if she would cut, she got upset! I would like to donate it for wigs so someone else can get benefit from it. I know it will grow back! 

In the meantime I await a call from the  chemo nurses to find out when i can start. I have been trying to keep myself busy and yesterday in this tropical heat and my hot flushes i forced myself out of the house and took a drive south to a beautiful little cane  cutters cottage I wanted to photograph and draw, whilst I was there the farmer stopped for a chat, I found out its history and met a nice local too. Queensland hospitality is a beautiful thing. On the way back I stopped outside the local hotel where i saw this old fella sitting outside, I asked him if I could photograph him, sitting down to chat I found out his history which was so interesting. I intend drawing and writing about him and other characters around this area, there are so many  cultures living here! I am trying to keep my treatment as part 2 of my life, my art hopefully will dominate through my treatment.  That's the plan anyway!