Hi All, It's coming up 5 weeks since I completed 14 months treatment. Today I went for my first mammogram since I was diagnosed in April 2014. I was anxious going to the appointment as I was scared that it was going to hurt as I have some lymphodeama. That breast was fine but it hurt like hell where my port is. After the mammogram as I was waiting for the ultrasound, the technician came out and asked me not to leave after the ultrasound. She asked where my last mammogram was, and as it so happens I had had it done privately across the road from the hopsital where I was having my tests today. They sent someone across the road to get them. I had the ultrasound and was again asked to wait. They came out and told me that they had found a "dense mass" in my left breast (the good one) and wantied to do further ultrasound. Because of having to make adjustments for my port, the mammogram wasn't that clear. So back in I went. The next thing the doctor came in and took over the ultrasound. Everybody kept telling me that it was nothing to worry about but the doctor asked me to bring in any previous mammograms I had had to compare. Again I was told that they didn't think it was anything to worry about and that they were being thorough. So why have I fallen apart? Why am I completely terrified? I can rationalise it in my head. It is what it is, if it is something I will deal with it, etc. But emotionally, I am completely terrified. I keep crying and am so anxious it's not funny. I have a two week wait before I see the surgeon next. OMG!!!! Just when you think things are easier and life is moving forward. I have completely gone back to how I felt when I was first diagnosed. What the hell is a dense mass? What does it all mean? My mind is just completely running wild. Karen.

Karen I can't imagine how you are feeling , going through this already and then having to face all the turmoil again. Your head must be spinning. All I can suggest is like the first time take it day by day, no good trying to guess things, only the tests will show. I'm going through this for the first time, just had a mastectomy waiting for my results for the next step. You are allowed to feel, scared, sad, angry whatever you want to feel. This is a fantastic site to put it all out there and receive support and advice from strong, brave, inspirational women. Hang in there Karen. All the very best. Sending you hugs and healing thoughts ????

Karen, I'm so sorry you are having such a difficult time. Your response is completely understandable. A friend who has had cancer told me when I was diagnosed that there will never again be a headache or stomach pain that feels innocent after going through a cancer diagnosis - they were right. Scans and tests are likely to be terrifying for a long time too. I can't help but wonder why they haven't told you if something is wrong. I remember when I was diagnosed. I walked out of the radiology clinic at 12.30pm after my mammogram and ultrasound. By 3pm my GP was on the phone wanting me to come in that night. A dense mass could be so many things and they are no doubt being so careful given your history. I am no oncologist but it is hard to imagine a new cancer could have got hold in your "good" breast after you have been pummelled with chemo etc over the past 14 months. If there is anything there it could surely only be very new. So hard but hope you can try not to suffer over what hasn't happened and quite likely won't. Hope you have someone supportive with you and can get some sleep. Sending you love and best wishes. Xxxxxxx

Karen, I'm just going to agree with what the others have said. I'm only two months since diagnosis, so a long way to go. All I can say is that I think that I, too, would be reacting exactly as you have. Take it easy, and know that you're in my thoughts, Lyn

Hey Karen. Two weeks seems an awfully long time. I was originally seen on a Wednesday, referr al and ultrasound scan that day and mammagram. Back to doctors Thursday, biopsy on Friday, results back in the Monday. Admittedly I rang and pushed through to have my results asap, and the doctor agreed. Si Im thinking two weeks seems too long. Is it possible to speak to breast care nurse, reception etcans keep asking for resuktsto be givento you. If specialist takes long time to get in, see your GP, who can ring and follow up results for you. All the best, praying its all good xx

Hi Kazza, because it was just a normal scheduled follow up and I'm guessing that they didn't expect to find anything, this is just the way the appointments worked out. I'm thinking I might give the day oncology a ring and ask if there is anyway I can find out sooner as I'm a basket case. It was so much quicker for me first time around too, so they may even give me a call. Thanks for your support. Karen

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Cook65
Member
11 years ago
I got a call this morning from the hospital at 8.00am. Considering they couldn't possibly fit me in any sooner, they have all of a sudden changed my appointment with the breast surgeon to tomorrow morning first thing. At least I will have an idea of what's going on sooner. Oh boy am I scared. I just keep telling myself what will be will be
Cookie
Member
11 years ago
Hi Karen, my first mammogram and ultrasound after my second diagnosis revealed suspicious areas in both breasts. I had a core biopsy straight after on my left breast and a stereostatic biopsy on my right breast a few days later. Unfortunately for me it was bad news. Don't know how it works where you go for checkups but if they haven't said anything about a biopsy then it may not be anything to worry about. Thinking of you and hoping everything is ok.
Lindyloo
Member
11 years ago
Of course it's only natural for the bad thoughts to be circling round your head. A dense mass could be anything. They had told me the same thing in my good breast too. For me it just meant that the tissue was slightly thicker in places, nothing to be concerned about. Could be cysts? But someone has already said about the chemo you had had, would have dealt with things. we are all behind you. Have a good cry, it helps. But you are strong, you have come through so much already. Lots of hugs to you. Let us know how you get on. Xxxx
Anonymous
Not applicable
11 years ago
OMG Karen, that's not the news that you want. Thinking of you during this time and sending you a big cuddle ?? Trace
Melhay
Member
11 years ago
Thinking of you & crossing toes & fingers that the news is good Karen.

Keep calling whoever you need to get some answers before your next appointment - GP, breast care nurse, etc etc.

& keep venting here or doing whatever helps to cope with the stress & anxiety. You are not being ridiculous - you are scared, worried & anxious - as anyone would be in your position.

Take Care

Mel xxx
lisboy
Member
11 years ago
Hi Karen

so sorry to hear that you are going through this mental torture. Hopefully someone from the hospital will get back to you asap so that you know what you are dealing with.

Thinking of you and hoping for positive news

Lisaxx
Hazel_M
Member
11 years ago
Hi Karen, I have been offline for a little while, so just catching up. What a terrible time for you, I hope they get back to you soon, it's mental torture. I'm crossing everything for you to get good results and sending you big big cyber hugs, all the best,

Hazel xx
LorraineB
Member
11 years ago
Hi Karen, I am thinking of you. I do hope you will news of your results very soon. Lorraine
Kazzi
Member
11 years ago
Hi Karen,

So sorry to hear you're going through this. I can't imagine how you're feeling but know follow up mammograms are what I'll be facing once treatment finishes for me later this year. All the women have posted excellent comments. Hang in there. You can do this.

Sending big cyber hugs your way,

Karen xx
Cook65
Member
11 years ago
The hospital didn't ring back so I guess no news is good news. I'm feeling a little calmer than I was. I don't feel like just crying constantly. To be honest I think I was in shock. I really didn't expect them to find anything bar the usual cysts. Hoping I will get some sleep tonight. Thanks for the comments and support. They really do help. Karen xox

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