LOSER

I am so very glad you awoke feeling hopeful. Everything always feels better when that's the way our emotion compass is pointing. And at times, there's a lot to be said for a drug induced haze if it means sleep and a little escape. I couldn't agree more wholeheartedly with you on the issue of spin: I don't know what shocked me more, diagnosis or learning that even with it not in my nodes, excised with a mastectomy, body awash with chemo and living with an essentially oestregen free body, the darn thing can come back. They just don't quite sell that message in all those too-pink ad campaigns do they? There's no question you've made all the right choices, and availed yourself to all the best we have on offer. I'm sorry if I was clumsy in what I wrote re the medical system failing you...I meant only that it hasn't yet caught up to the cure stage, all any of us wish for, not only for ourselves and each other, but the women who will follow us. From what you've shared, it sounds like you are in the care of an extraordinary team of professionals who've been as determined to want to influence the outcome as you have. Thanks again for sharing with such honesty Amanda. You keep it real, authentic, and that's worth so much more than the bubblegum flavoured pink candyfloss some serve us. May the symptom management plan fall into place for you with relative ease I hope. Here's to a good day. xo