LOSER
So please bear with me. This may seem self indulgent. I have to get it out. Maybe I am not alone in my feelings.
I work hard to stay positive, to maintain some hope as it seems to be running out. I...
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Firstly a big hug. I had a dear friend who was one of the most amazing, beautiful, strongest, determined, funniest and delightful person I have ever had the pleasure of knowing. She recently passed away from her breast cancer, leaving her 4 kids and husband behind. She was not a failure. Her life means so much to those of her who knew and loved her and the fact that her cancer got her in the end, is no reflection on her or that she failed. In the end we all die, whether it be of old age or sooner with disease, we will all pass away. Dying is not a failure on our behalf, it is part of life.
There is a difference between a cure and healing, and I wish for you healing. Of course I pray that you are around for a long time yet and that your disease can be held at bay in the years ahead, but please go gently on yourself. You may find this book by Rachel Naomi Remen helpful. It has really soothed and calmed me over recent months, particularly when I was first diagnosed. I love how it starts off talking about life force and resilience. It brought me a lot of peace when fear threatened to take over. I had a hard copy but have also rececently downloaded it onto kindle through Amazon. http://www.rachelremen.com/books/kitchen-table-wisdom/
Will hold you in my thoughts.
Ngaire