Sometimes, I look back and wonder who that person was who was interested in sex - surely not me. And I try to recall how I used to think that made me feel that way but I draw a blank.
By the by, I've got a weird thing happening occasionally that I will ask my surgeon about (if I remember and don't feel too stupid) - phantom nipple sensation. I had the mastectomy and had to lose the nipple as well, but every now and then I feel that it is still there - a bit like how they say that someone who has lost a foot can feel sensation in the toe. I assume that it's the nerve endings and brain working together and coming up with a likely scenario that is absolutely impossible. The sensation isn't particularly sexual and if I try to touch it, of course I'm touching air. Really bizarre.