Just Because I'm Crying
I've heard people complain that it's impossible for anyone to stay positive all the time and that all of the recent advice about happiness and positivity is, therefore, complete bullshoot.
Well, ye...
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Is there a reason why you think surgery might trigger the depresson?
Is it possible that once you've had surgery and you're free of cancer that you might feel much better instead?
Best to be prepared without manifesting it, perhaps.
I'm in a similar situation with PTSD and fibromyalgia. Got the PTSD under control a while ago but the fibro keeps rolling on around. It was kept at bay during chemotherapy (or maybe I just felt so awful I didn't notice it), but now that I'm out the other side of surgery I'm coping with the return of the fibro AND peripheral neuropathy. On my really bad days I remind myself that it's still much better than being dead. If I have the thought 'Or is it?' then it's time to get professional help.
I do have a friend that feels her cancer cured her depression. It's been five years since her diagnosis and she describes it as being something like a 'religious experience'. She spent the weeks after surgery realising how wonderful it was to be alive and she hasn't seen the black dog since. I wish the same for you.
You've probably already seen this, but just in case you haven't: