IVF.....What should I do?

Yes, I sure do wish for that fairy on my shoulder, or perhaps a crystal ball! Thank you so much for your insight.....there are quite a few similarities in our stories! No matter what I decide, I will always want another baby, you are right about that. Its funny, everything I'm reading and hearing suggests it would be reasonable for me to proceed.......but my gut instinct is screaming NO. I dont want to make a decision out of fear, but I cant ignore this feeling. My cancer is strongly ER and PR positive. I felt it in October the size of a pea, and it was 3.1cm at surgery. I was told it couldn't have grown that quickly..... Well it did! I think I have decided to not go ahead. I feel sad but strangely at peace with this decision. But guilty too, like I am ruining my future family.....my husband is very supportive but he will be very sad if we have no more children too. Gee, cancer sucks :( Xx J