In denial

Hi Hazel

yep, yep, yep, yep and yep! I have no desire AT ALL. It's got to the stage that my hubby cannot even enter me as the atrophy is so bad so we just don't bother. We haven't had sex for probably 8 months now. I've tried talking to my gp and he said talk to the oncologist. I talked to the oncologist and she said things will get better, just wait. Lubricants make no difference. It's all become just too damn hard.  An onc nurse suggested going to a sex shop and getting different sized dildos but I can't bring myself to do it. I didn't think I was a prude but maybe I am. Hubby won't even talk about it. He's embarrassed that I've spoken to the doctors about it.  I miss the closeness, the intimacy and frankly, I miss the sex.  Hubby says it's ok and that it doesn't matter but I does. I honestly don't know what the answer is. I wish I did for all of our sakes. 

Karen xox