I need to stay happy and polite

Oh Natalie you poor darling.

I'm 4-5 months post 2 ops, a lumpectomy, sentinel node biopsy, then axillary node level 2 surgery.

I am a positive person, bit about 2-3 months into this after 3-4months of temps, post on redness, infections etc I started to get a bit flat. 

I've just finished rads, only 20, but I'm so exhausted. In pain with my arm still from surgery. My breast has coped well, bit still has infection area and very uncomfortable. Dealing with migraines, asthma, back, hip problems. I'm anaemic also.

I feel like a broken record, but just feel so wrecked still. 

I know though that my body has been traumatized and it will take time. I'm positive but oh so tired. My family have been terrific, 5 adult children that have been there for me. Haven't a husband or partner but the kids ended up stepping up so well I don't feel I've missed out in that regard. 

I'm sorry the fam are not being more supportive. I did one time yell at my son, for God's sake, I've got breast cancer, stop being so nasty. 

That night he went to the shops, got all the food and cooked is all a wonderful meal. So a good shout occasionally may help, lol. 

You are in such early stage of recovery from such a massive operation. You take all the time you need to recover and don't feel guilt. I've been learning to let go of guilt when I need to ring my boss to say I can't make work. I know I need to get strong again, to rest as needed, to recover, to be pampered. This is what you need. Let your family know this is what's needed, that everyone is different and gets back to doing things at different levels. 

Will say prayers your support network realise how much you need this time and don't pressure you. 

Love and smiles to you xxx