Hi Joadavis and Sillysam - Well girls after reading that I figured one thing, all the women on this site 'get it' - and yes you have a right to be angry, there isn't one of us out there that hasn't thought about what we hate from time to time and its ok to vent - that is the wonderful thing about this site. Please seek some counselling, I mean it can't do any harm can it, and sometimes you need someone outside the square to see things a little differently and help you understand your feelings. Right now you are angry, hurt and mighty upset, and you will from time to time have more days like that - having said that, you will also have better days when you are coping a little easier. It's hard to I know, but remember there are people out there that 'love you' and we are here when you need us x x x Josie