So sorry you're having a 'sad' day @scram xx. Big hugs - you've had a hard year. xx. Condolences on the loss of your Mum xx
To be honest, I think most of us have 'sad days' now & then - it isn't self pitying ... it is just grieving for 'who we used to be' before we got onto this 'illness treadmill'. Feel free to vent here xx
Your fitness will hold you in good stead ....try & maintain what you can, without overdoing it ....
Please ring the helpline tomorrow and have a private chat xxx. I think just talking to someone will help you xx
take care & all the best xx